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Parent Guilty : Bagaimana cara mengatasinya

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Menjadi Orang Tua merupakaan dambaan bagi banyak orang, tetapi, untuk menjadi orang tua yang 'tepat dan hebat' membutuhkan perjalanan yang panjang dan tentu saja tidak mulus. Orang lain boleh melihat bahwa kita menjadi Orang Tua hebat apabila anak kita menjadi anak yang sukses.
Tak semua orang tahu bahwa pada proses perjalanan menjadi Orang Tua hebat ada proses-proses emosi yang dilibatkan, baik emosi positif mau emosi negatif. Salah satu emosi negative yang akan muncul ketika menjadi Orang Tua adalah menyesal atau sering kita sebut dengan ‘guilty’. Penyesalan secaraharfiah memiliki arti merasa tidak senang atau tidak bahagia (susah, kecewa, dan sebagainya) karena(telah melakukan) sesuatu yang kurang baik (dosa, kesalahan, dan sebagainya).
Contoh penyesalan yang mungkin di alami oleh keluarga muda adalah seorang Ibu yang tidak dapat memberikan ASI-ekslusif kepada anaknya, Ibu menyalahkan diri sendiri secara terus menesrus yang kemudian berujung pada depresi pasca melahirkan yang…

incompleteness

Nothing can save us from the incompleteness, unless you meet someone someday and they complete you, but not 100%.

People come and people go, driving thru a lot of challenges. 
Person may end up with the loneliness eventhough  the world is very  loudy. 
As we go carrying the incompleteness, we are looking something that makes us complete.
and then, we may find someone, something, somewhere in this world.
They spark the light, trying to convince us that they can give the completeness. Our logic machine is starting up. We are thinking whether it is fake or real.

The sparks may blind us from the real word, they took us to unordinary movement, that can destruct and eat us.
So many avoidance, we have to be careful for any step in our life.  


Oh, what a random mind nind. 



Thunder (1)

Di siang hari kita bertemu.
Menyelesaikan perasaan yang belum terucapkan, tetap saja ketika kita bertemu kita diam.
aku menunggu  untuk dirimu mengungkapkan, tapi dirimu menahan untuk tidak mengungkap, karena rasa salah menghantuimu.
Kita berpeluk, berpegang tangan tanpa saling mengungkapkan perasaan masing-masing.
tapi kita tahu bahwa kita saling mencintai.
Di penghujung hari, kita berpisah, untuk menjjalani hidup masing-masing
dan tetap dengan perasaan yang akan kita bawa sampai dengan kita bertemu lagi 
untuk menyelesaikan permasalahan ini.

what a bestfriend means?

Jakarta, 21 April 2019 
18.50 TPU Tanah Kusir 
aku berjalan di antara pusara terakhir para manusia, gelap dan sunyi berjalan sendiri. Memang betul sebaik-baiknya penasihat adalah kematian. aku berjalan dengan segudang memori yang bak kilat dia datang sekelibat-kelibat. ada memori tentang bagaimana kita tertawa, bagaimana dia membantu pada saat ulang tahun ke-17, dan bagaimana kita tidak ingin terpisahkan oleh universitas dan kota.  Tak juga muncul memori tentang bagaimana ketika kuliah kita akhirnya terpisah karena ambisi dan kesibukan masing-masing. But, i do remember when i was brokenhearted she's always there standby for me.
Indah, dari dirimu aku belajar mengerti artinya sahabat. Mengerti tentang bagaimana berharganya seorang teman, dan bagaimana kebaikan itu sangat mudah didapatkan dan ditularkan. Aku sangat bersyukur untuk setiap momen yang terlewati bersama Indah. 

 Maaf, i'm not a good friend of you.  Not being there when you need me. Tapi ndah, aku sangat bersyukur bisa menemani…

lemon and honey

They can be very sweet like a honey
but in the other hand they are sour like a lemon.

They have a very wide smile, but they are hiding something that people not knowing what they hide.
we lived in a fake society, where people can hide their emotion without knowing the consequences. i already learn and gain from this society, so i also hide my emotion as  well.
i always talk to my self, that no one cares about you, no one. you have to do all by yourself.

i admit that maybe just keep anything right for me, without nobody knowing, it will be very stressful for me, but here i am asking myself do they care about you after you talking to them? if not, then you should keep it by yourself.

Thank you and hello.

gratitude

these days i was reminded by some events that make me feel so gratitude for what i have in life.
well, i don't have to bring my child while i should earn for money (read: working), and i shouldn't give money to lender to create my happiness.

but these days also i'm asking myself, what should i define my happiness in this world?
do i have value my happiness with money, if yes, then i should search for more money, but hey do i have to always delicated by money?

i'm not happy because im going fat-er, more slimy fat inside my body make me feel like im a big nutrijell. also when i realise i don't have enough money to spend weekend, i'm really not happy.


self-reflection: valued or to be valued

Hello from the other sidee~~
its so typical when i said that hello, long time i've not been here to leave something trashy here.

today i just want to tell about the reflection of being 3-year employee of state-own company. for now, i'm writing with doing some waiting activities for obtaining something that favorable for my company.
For me, being an employee is a 'perfect comfort zone', because here there's not many rules that make you scared, the one and only that will make you scared is just your boss. because they can screaming in front of you and in front of many peeps.
But the consequence of that condition is by being employee we're not a valuable thing for them, trained? no! reward? no!

and how to be valued by them? for almost 4 years here, in my eyes, employee who want to be valued by their company should not doing the best or give best advise to their boss, you just have a big mouth-talk to them- gain some mass- and voila people looking at you as a great empl…