Sunday, September 23, 2012

parent's decision

we already have our values individually, we have a destiny that we must reach it and again we do it individually. we have a question that we must answer by ourselves. but how if your parents give any judgement for you? its not about my fact, but there are too many cases about parent decision that make some child feeling so wall-ed ( means we have a walls to reach the best one!). did you think same with me? most of parents want their child become adult ehmm an 'adult way of thinking' but what they do its about they teach us still, they give any commands for us to do this this and this, whataaaa!
lets we start our discussion here. what do you think about that? what we shall do, in case you want to make your own way our values become true but you didn't want to hurt their heart?

kindly, you can give a comment here or by email. thanks ! :D

Thursday, September 20, 2012


back to the child time, i got my new game! syalalala.
yes here they are, nickelodeon jigsaw! really love to solve a puzzle :D. and what you have to do is solving the  cartoon-y things :D . this game ate my time for a while, uh sorry a long time hahaha. so enjoy my pics guys :D

 choose the pieces of puzzle that you want to solve

 wait till the puzzle loaded

Now! its your turn

already crossed.

one day, when i feel so sad of something, the rainbow came and picturize my face, whatever you feel in your heart, give this camera your warmth smile :)> it will make you see, you're better when your smile and show your teeth :D
 a warmthy teeth :)

see the 'eye's pocket?'


tired of being what you are, remember when i decided to do this way. great! we can't blame to God why God gave me this way and you with that way? 
take the positive and peel out the negative. that's what i do now, i try to see everything from the positive to minimalize my stress or anything that makes my heart and brain burn out!
really want to make everything become better, better and better :D
#another self motivation

Monday, September 17, 2012

script (sih?)

my daily activitiy at this time is about open the gmail close again open gmail close again. just want to see if my lecturer giving any suggestion for my thesis tittle. going crazy sometimes, but here you go you're feeling like your old (another) college student feel. waiting for the lecturer maybe for the revision or just the tittle! watchaa! 
so after this all post that talking about the thesis gonna be tagged as #sekripsih.
a big dedication for my final task! :D

senior-ended year!

hello! its almost 1 month i didn't post anything at this blog. wawawaaa~ a lot of thought, feeling and mostly  story need to be told here. but sometimes lazy and the crowded time became my bestfriends. wait? crowded time? don't you remember that you're now in final grade? *selftalk. yap! i'm on the final grade now, but the activities still like the 3rd semester :p. in daily, a lot of profession i do, such teach student, yah lecturer assistant for organizational and industrial psychology also success skill :), its very make me happy and all my times, never useless. another, i use my time to come over the library, doing my research for my final task (read: skripsi). honestly, i still dont have any tittle for my thesis, i have to wait the confimation from my lecturer about the tittle. bahbahbah! it makes me worried about my future, but worrying gonna be the mubazir thing you know. 
so, now, i'm collecting any pieces of my spirit. because the final year you'll fight with yourself!

the call

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back when you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes
You'll come back when they call you
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back when they call you
No need to say goodbye

Saturday, September 15, 2012


berulang kali kita harus bersyukur entah untuk apa pun itu kamu perlu bersyukur. meskipun beribu cobaan datang kamu harus bersyukur disaat itulah Tuhan mengujimu apakah kamu bisa lebih lebih dan lebih baik dari dirimu yang sebelumnya , noted: bukan untuk orang lain.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

spoiler for the extra-story post :P

much story will be told  here, happy, sad, and anything!. but its wrapped on a big tittle  "KKN CERIAAA". stay close to this blog, you will see the magnificient post :p. this is the spoiler for you , 2 pictures that represented my story.

 my beloved sub-unit 2!!!

my superbig family
KKN UNIT 41 Sidomukti

sentimental heart

                                            Cried all night 'til there was nothing more
What use am I as a heap on the floor?
Heaving devotion but it's just no good
Taking it hard just like you knew I would

Old habits die hard
When you've got
When you've got a sentimental heart
Piece of the puzzle you're my missing part
Oh, what can you do with a sentimental heart?
Oh, what can you do with a sentimental heart?

its been almost month by month, feeling so ambigu nothing to worries nothing to be sad, or nothing to blablablaaa~. but all these ambiguity make me feel so so sentimental with everything, starts from the tiny things untill the hard thing. hahaha. dunno whats the causes above that.

Monday, September 3, 2012

f*ckin perfect

Made a wrong turn once or twice.Dug my way out, blood and fire.Bad decisions, that's alright.Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood.Miss 'No way, it's all good'.It didn't slow me down.Mistaken, always second guessing.Underestimated, look I'm still around
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel.Like you're less than fucking perfect.Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel.Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me
You're so mean when you talk.About yourself. You were wrong.Change the voices in your head.Make them like you instead.
So complicated,.Look happy, You'll make it!Filled with so much hatredSuch a tired game.It's enough, I've done all I could think of Chased down all my demons.I've seen you do the same
The whole world's scared, so I swallow the fear.The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer.So cool in line and we try try try but we try too hard.And it's a waste of my time.Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere.They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair.Exchange ourselves and we do it all the time.Why do we do that, why do I do that (why do I do that)?

why so seriously perfect???????????

si pemain parodi

kita pernah bermain bersama bermain dalam sebuah panggung parodi yang tokoh utamanya adalah kita.
kita tertawa terbahak, kita menangis tersedu, sampai akhirnya kita marah memaki.
kamu bahkan aku tidak menyangka, kita akan melewati detik sampai bulan-bulan seperti ini yang terkadang semuanya menjemukan, karena hanya madu yang tidak asli yang kamu berikan, alias semua itu bohong.
sampai akhirnyaitu semua terungkap, ketika ada satu pemain parodi yang menurutku dia hanyalah seorang cameo datang hanya sekejap untuk mampir menggantikan sinar terangku untuk sementara ingat hanya sementara!. namun lagi-lagi itu permanen, dia yang mendapat cahaya dariku secara terus-menerus. aku si pemain parodi lama tersungkur jatuh dan sungguh itu bukan bohongan itu adalah kejadian yang sebenarnya. tidakkah kau pikirkan bagaimana rasanya jatuh seperti ini?
tidakkah kau pikirkan bagaimana rasanya sakit hati seperti ini?
dan tidakkah kau pikirkan bagaimana caranya agar tidak menyakiti orang lain di setiap perilakumu?


what are you waiting for if you stuck on the final season?
feeling more and more drowned. getting sick of this life, without thinking whats the positive of your life.
tears come and erase your sadness, that's why you love the tears, and guess what your daily activity switched into the tears activities.